I drank the peppermint after playfully bashing others for it so I guess we're all a little hypocritical these days

slow life again?? yup

My father resides in stillness

his absence in the movement is not

absence at all but

I am dizzy, spinning round.

the world is already spinning in his hand gracefully greatly always

so why am I spinning too?

We all say we want slow life but I don’t know how the last three months flew off with no wings. The year, really. So much life, good life, lived in a solitary segment. It got packed in!!! Holding it all, hands tight around cherished things. We crave the steadiness. How is it a constant mantra of busy and life will always be full but does it have to be busy in the sense that we say it with that look of yeah same old same old busy busy.

All the things that are known flash by and the new things stand still before they become known and there’s a sweetness in knowing them fully and even fuller and a flicker of sadness in them becoming faster. Make it stand still make it stand here beside me. To see what is present and have faith is what is out of my feeble sight.

Can we ban saying how are you. Can I work up the courage to ask something different and longer and deeper to all the people that file about. I’ve tried to walk when I can for close enough errands in downtown and fill my pocket calendar when I remember to and scribble in notebooks organized only by the topic being my thoughts ideas dreams. To drive in silence to sit in silence. Dumb things and devices does not automatically grant me a difference, it’s a tool to achieve that, but I can’t rely on anything but my Lord.

Sure, throw out your tv and say I’m off the gram for good this time! but the real slowness is of heart and thats a daily dying I’m still learning and finding and trying to yellow light it all. The leaves are turning that hue, maybe in the cold and change of season I can too.